Within this pitch black darkness around me,
I vaguely see an image that is so faint that I want to flee.
Inspite of being afraid I walk towards to it to eavesdrop,
On it’s quite husky and faint voice I hear.
“Help, please help.”that’s what it told me,
Reaching out her arms as it approach me.
Trembling in fear , I fled away with shock,
As I saw through it’s image my heart is straight up strucked.
That image. No, that person is not what I’m thinking of who might she be.
I closed my eyes and realized “Who am I kidding! , It’s me”.
“It’s me”, alongside with my tears flowing right beaneath my cheeks,
I was stuck between my toxicity and now it reeks.
This void that hid this anxiety, madness, DEPRESSION deep within my body,
It’s rotting me inside but I still look outside happily.
This excruciating pain that I felt almost my whole life.
It is like being stabbed continuously with a rusty knife.
My life before which is peaceful and pure,
Has been tainted with a virus that has not cure.
Drowning in a sea full of my ego .
Facing my end like there’s no where to go.
In this life that has no option for a thing called redo,
Were my status is everything I can enjoy are overdue.
As I slowly crumble deep within,
My face uncontrollably expressed with grin.
“Why I’ve been suffering all my life?”,
“I should be in a family were there is husband and wife.”
“I should be in a time that I could enjoy being young,”
“Were there will be my friends with me to hang.”
“I should be in the sky reaching my dreams.”,
“Like a princess in one of those films.”
But no, this I was led to,
A life that brings everything but pain and don’t even get a clue.
Bullied, Alone, Oppressed,
Deprived, Destroyed, Depressed.
From the depths of my despair,
Were I thought my life wouldn’t be repaired.
On this void I am in ,
A speck of light shines right within.
“You fought hard.” Said by its voice which is soft and mild,
Then it whispered to my ear,” It will be over my child”.
My cold hands are warmer than they ever had,
We’ll now I’m on the right path, thanks to God.